I’m finally getting it. I know what’s “wrong” with me.
I lack self control/self discpline.
I fail in almost all my goals because of it.
“I’m going to wake up by 7 AM every morning.”
reality: “Oh, but it’s so cold out there. Just a few more minutes of snuggling.”
“I want to get in shape. Time to exercise!”
“This is hard. Is there an easier exercise? It’s too cold to go on a jog.”
“We need to eat better, more nourishing foods.”
“I don’t have much time, what can I slap together. Oh, look, a cookie…”
“I’m going to get all my homework done today so the weekend is free.”
“I’m so bored of homework… ohh, Pinterest! Facebook!”
“Let’s keep the house tidy. Every night we should take 10 minutes to put stuff away.”
“I’m so sleepy, I just want to crawl in bed… I’ll do it tomorrow.”
See the trend? I’m ridiculous. The excuses I make are made simply because I’m not disciplined. If I want to eat healthy, I balance my time better. If I want to get in shape, it’s going to require effort. It’s not easy. The root of the problem is my lack of self discipline. I’m beginning to understand that I need to tackle one small area of my life at a time rather than attacking all of them at once. It’s just frustrating, because I want to be that self-disciplined, motivated, and inspiring person.
It takes so much time and work to develop good habits, but they’re also so quick and easy to lose. This semester is really going to test me and push me to be more self-disciplined.
I don’t have a solution. I’m going to mess up. I already have. But I’m ready to grow up, even if it is just one day at a time.
I’m so glad for each new day so I can try again.